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Nikko OBB,
Dear Ning, How’s Chewie? hihi. This is probably really psychotic, writing a post for you when you’ve already passed on and completely oblivious to whatever happens here anymore. But you see, death is a very puzzling concept to your kakak. Especially when it comes to pets, aye? But what I’m really absolutely completely sure of is, you’re in Syurga now, and your passing here is only the start of never ending happiness, without any pain or suffering at all. I just wanted to tell you Ning, that I woke up today and completely forgot you were gone. I’m sure Izzat probably felt the same way because he always looks for you in the morning. Mummy pun for sure had that moment when she suddenly remembered. Your Cimuk probably took a longer time to remember at all, considering how blur he is hihi. But I’m sure that when we realized you weren’t going to be waiting for us at the foot of the stairs anymore, all of us started to remember everything about you. You were always there for me, Ning. In the morning you’re usually the one waking me up, meowing your head off trying to get me to open the door so you could go out and do your business. Whenever I ate, you would be there near me, looking up and waiting patiently for your turn. Daddy always said you were the best cat in the world (eventhough he doesnt like cats) because you never disturbed us while we ate. Then when I showered, you used to be there with me. We used to say you told every cat in the neighbourhood my dirty little secrets hihi. Then whenever I go out, I’d say goodbye to you and pet your furry head. When you were younger, you were the one who was never home. Asyik lepak dgn your friends and all your girlfriends. Dengan inai atas kepala Mummy taruk tu, gangster habis! Then kakak got older, and you got older too, and it was your turn to stay home because you easily got tired and couldnt walk around that much anymore and it was kakak’s turn to roam around. Even when I got home late, you’d still be there waiting by the front door. Sometimes I swear I could see a disapproving look in your eyes as you watched me take my shoes off. ’Lambat balik?’ I’m pretty sure if you could speak, you would ask me that. Sometimes kakak and abang Ap will lepak at home, remember? Then you’ll assist Opah in becoming our chaperones. At the time, you weren’t very friendly with other people, but you were very nice to abang Ap kan? Ning teman kakak study for PMR, for SPM, for SAM also. I’m sure you prayed for kakak too, and I want to thank you loads for that. Masa kakak skype date pun Ning cibukcibuk kan? Baring atas keyboard la, baring belakang laptop kakak la carik heat. Or maybe you really did take your job as our chaperone seriously. Baik sgt Ning. Just so you know, baby, some people are still thinking about you. They offer your kakak comfort with kind words and kind texts, and cookies. Mamai gave kakak cookies! I wish I could’ve shared some with you, you were always nuts about butter. Ikan rebus la, kfc la, ayam bakar tesco la, cookie dough la. Anything and everything with butter innit and you gobble it up dont you? Roidi and abang Ap put your picture up also, with us. Happy tak? Just between the two of us, kakak doesnt know how to reply to these kind words and kind notions, since we both know how silly kakak is when it comes to social interaction. But i really hope all these nice people know that what they say means a whole lot to kakak. Ning, kakak wants to go down and eat now. You wont be there waiting for me but its okay. I’ll still remember everything about you, and I wont forget. Ning Ning, you wanna know another dirty little secret? This blog post is not so much for you as it is for myself. Dont worry, now kakak will really never ever forget about you. I’ll read this again when I start to doubt myself. Sayang Ning always and forever <3
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